if my kids get better i promise i will never...

complain about mothering two again. 

This must be kharma, because I have had a harder time being the fun-loving, patient, creative, active mother that I aim to be lately. I have been tired, distracted, and even thinking about part-time work, anywhere....anywhere but home. I found myself rolling my eyes, sighing constantly, making sure those around me that love me best know that this mothering shit is hard. and then the kids got sick. and then i got sick. and for almost two weeks now I have been in this fog. This oh dear if I only had my two healthy mostly happy and independent kids back I would be the happiest, most patient mother around.

Instead I have this:

A sick baby who will only sleep sitting up (ear infection?), who throws up most of the golden mothers milk she drinks down, whose eyes look so sad and droopy it hurts to look at her

A toddler who clingy, crying, and only wants mommy.

A messy house.

An empty fridge.

In a way this is a great way to end the year.  Being the rather positive person that I am I try to find that silver lining in everything and here is what I got this time around:

Stop complaining sarah. you have a wonderful husband who is an amazing father. your two year old is sweet, curious, independent, and fun to be around. your daughter is beautiful, happy, usually healthy, and is like your little soulmate. your house is great....except the toys, junk and clothes thrown about everywhere, and your kitchen-should you choose to re-enter it in the near future to make, bake, and cook food, is gorgeous. you live by the park and beach. your siblings are your best friends and play an active roll in your childrens' lives, and your parents...just downstairs help in every little way they can, everyday.

so.....as we recover from this two week fever/vomiting/cough and loads of snot.....I plan to really bite into each wonderful aspect of my life, to chew up the parts that are hard and to enjoy each moment i have with these wonderful children.

so...if my kids get better I promise I will never complain about mothering again..

at least for a few weeks!