idigs: sowing the seeds of love

1. A kickass two hour workout, and feeling the energy flow through my body giving me the strength to finish strong.

2. All the people, both friends and family, that truly love me and my little family, and go out of their way to be a part of our kids' lives (rick, alex, amy, corin: love you all)

3. Seeing the play Tommy last night with my brother, and having a husband that supports me going out, and is able to help both kids fall asleep.

4. Our garden, eating from it, watching the kids navigate it, eat from it, and mostly, watching adam tend to his plants as if they were his own children.

5. Watching Charlie speed away on his bike with a huge smile.

6. Kate, her new words and phrases, and the way she makes jokes, tries to pee on the potty, and adores her big brother.

7. The process of letting go....accepting the things we can not change...and trying not to be so sensitive and take things so personally.

8. Cloudy skies with enough son to make a poor boy's pants (that's for you Nana)

9. My sister and brother and the hope that my children will be as loving, supportive, and close to each other as I am to my siblings.

10. Being a vegetarian, watching my children eat healthy, wholesome, organic, and locally grown food.

11. Running into a family I used to work with as a teacher in Pescadero and seeing their little boy Jairo all grown up, and coming to the immediate realization that my little boy will grow up too, and that I love and miss teaching.

12. Adam.

13. Playing with the parking garage, train tracks, and play kitchen with my two silly sweethearts.

14. Holding Charlie through a tantrum and talking to him, guiding him through a mess of emotions.

15. Hearing Kate yell back at Charlie today, "YOU'RE MEAN!" and feeling a mixture of oh shit, the fighting has begun, and oh yes my little girl has spunk.

16. home made popsicles.

17. Being able to tell charlie that things he wants to drink like soda and juice are really like alcohol and only meant for adults, and him excepting it.

18. Hearing Charlie tell me that when he grows up he wants to drink beer, coffee, and eat meat, and the realization that it is very possible that he will grow up to be his own individual and not have my world views....and giving myself the decade or so I need to come to realize that is really ok as long as he is a kind human being and happy.

19. Expressing my fears to Adam and my family and getting a small dose of relief from it.

20. The ocean.

21. Our daily walks/bike rides to the park and watching Charlie and Kate create their own games at this park.

22. The zoo, discovery museum, and fun parks we have been visiting, and feeling that with my kids I can really do anything.

23. Knowing deep down inside that I am a great mom (complete with mistakes) and that Adam is an amazing dad, and that those two facts alone will carry us through anything.

24. Quiet evenings when the children have collapsed in a heap of exhaustion.

25. Accepting the truth that not everyone has to love and understand my children like I do, and that is no reflection on my children, but more of a reflection on others.