I can't wait for my sister Amy to come home. I miss our weekly talks about every little thing. I miss her visiting us. She is so wonderful with Charlie. Always trekking all the way from Davis to blow bubbles, read stories, and make my son laugh.
It has been hard to let go, and I feel like that is what I have done over the past five years. close doors and new ones open right? Or is it open new ones and old ones start to close.
I used to dream about living with amy forever...on a farm or phat piece of land. Things change, and I am happy about that. I look at adam (he's so cute, in case ya never seen him) and think about how lucky I am to have such a playful, fun, loving, and devoted dad/husband, and I look into charlie's eyes as he tries the new dance move his dad taught him, and I look even deeper into my daughter's eyes....and know I made the right choice. The choice to come home, live next to my family, and start my own.
So....even though this was all my doing, it is a continual process of letting go. Letting amy go and travel for 12 weeks in Guat. and then another 12 around the u.s. Letting my sister go as she travels to asia, up north to farm, and doing south to burning man (as a side note, when I explained to char that Aunt Na couldnt come to the zoo with us because she was headed to burning man, he spent the next two full days saying, Aunt Na wait, Char char burning man. 16 years buddy, 16 years you will have to wait.
Letting go of travel plans, hours alone, car trips, backpacking trips, old friends, living in a new and exciting town or country.
But oh I am off topic. The main thrust for this entry is to say that I am over the top excited that my mamy is coming to town next week. I cant wait for the big hug and all the words and fun that will follow.
Love my mamy!
1 comment:
Oh, how I wish I had a relationship like that with one of my siblings! You are so very blessed. Here's to hoping our children love their siblings as much!
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